I am back and this is where my blogging will most likely take off in full flight. Our youngest and our only daughter has left the nest for her freshman year in college....four and a half hours away from home.... we moved her in on Thursday..... to the middle of nowhere.....away from me, us and did I mention 4.5 hours away from home?!?!?!
She is our second and last child to leave and go away to college. I thought, since I had prior experience with our son doing it exactly four years prior, that I would be okay. It would be a piece of cake. I could handle it. And I would be fine. Ugh.... that is is big fat NO! I am not okay, I am not fine at the moment and any prior experience that I may of had does not help me to deal with it now.
So now what? I think the issue is that when someone spends half of their life being a parent, taking care, living and breathing and getting up everyday and doing what they need to do for their children and then BAM.... having the rug pulled out right from under them! The kids are now adults, gone and have moved on with their lives (as they should), and we, the parents, are left empty handed, in limbo and unsure as to what purpose we have now in life. At least, that is how I am feeling now. You try to prepare, you know the time is coming, but when it stares at you right in the face, you have no idea on what to do next.
So here I sit on a beautiful Saturday afternoon, in a quiet house, trying to figure out if I should take a nap, organize my linen closet or straighten up my daughter's room up just a little.
Maybe you are wondering what my husband thinks of all this.....right now he is cleaning out the shed. I think this just might be his purpose at this very moment. At least he is trying to move forward.
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